Drown/Float
Drown
The feeling of drowning has been something I have never experienced physically. I learned to swim from a young age, or so I thought. As time has gone on I have struggled with the feeling of drowning. I am not physically drowning, I am a great swimmer in that sense. I am referring to the world, the world of takers, its people, and life events submerging me, suffocating me.
Float
The feeling of losing direction, no longer knowing which was or is up. Trying to go back to the surface, but sometimes swimming deeper instead. I am not good at asking for help and there is no arm to reach out for. These images dive into emotions of inner turmoil. Sometimes complacent, sometimes writhing, and always depleted. A body sinks in the beginning then tends to float.
Once the body floats it is usually too late. Seeing someone drown physically is harder to look away from, will you reach out a hand before someone floats?